April 1, 2006 [Saturday] A Special Thank You

 Thank you to my Internet Friends

I just wanted to take some time and say Thank you to all of you who have written me, offered words of encouragement and prayer. You may never really know how much that has meant to me. But to open up my in box and read the messages from complete strangers has truly touched my heart. In moments of personal despair, you have made me smile, and made me feel hope once more. Some of you have made me cry, by touching my soul so deeply. Without you even knowing it, you gave me the courage to keep fighting. Then there are some of you who were just down right funny and amusing and I needed a good laugh.

When I decided to post blogs about my cancer ordeal, it was just an outlet for me. And at the same time, thought by chance I may come across others experiencing the same thing. And since I have always tried to face life’s challenges with great optimism, it may help someone else. Even though no one has written me who has cancer as well, many have written me who has had someone in their life that had cancer. So hearing what they experienced or how they dealt with it (such as Bill), has helped me.

See I know this is going to be a long battle, but I pray that I can keep my current state of health to its optimum, and there for living some what of a normal existence. If that is possible then there won’t be so many blogs about the whole ordeal. I have went through a very bad and painful time, much of it was before I was even diagnosed with cancer. But I am much better now. And I have to tell you, that I honestly believe it has much to do with the power of prayer. My own Doctor never expected such a quick turn around from the cancer meds (after all it is stage 4 cancer), so the meds may only be playing a small part. The prayers from my family, my personal friends, my Online friends and others around the world have been heard. You know my overwhelming fear and tears have subsided as well. Something I prayed for, for God to take the fear from me, as I turned my life over to him. I have found great comfort in that.

This is my wish, that one day I will get to personally meet each and everyone of you who has written me. That my cancer will be in remission and I can celebrate that with you. I just wish there was a way for me to keep track of every one who has written me over the many months to follow. All I can hope for is that you stay in touch so that when I get that great news, I can share it with you, for you all have played a big part in all this thus far.

I just hope my story, however it ends, helps someone along the way. Because I will try and remain the fighter with a very positive attitude, because for me there is no other choice. I still have another half of a life time to live. And hopefully find the love of my life