April 28, 2006 [Friday] The Day the Cancer starts to Die

Below is a copy of my horoscope for (today) FRIDAY. This could be the day my cancer starts to die. Let us pray!!!!!!! If it magically disappears, I will be calling the TV stations, the newspapers, wearing shirts, getting a bill board, and dedicating a web site. Proof that Miracles do happen, by the hand of God. With God all things are possible, and I do believe he will save me. And it may just start today. Then there is the part about certain desires, and a new romance. And as it turns out, I kind of have a fancy for a certain someone right now. And one of thing I shared with him yesterday, was the fact that all I have ever desired was a man to be totally in love with me. The kind of love that never quits and fights to keep me, if there is trouble. I know this is far fetched, and I sound absurd, but something really just hit me when I read this horoscope. Like it totally made sense to me.

A sudden and unexpected release of tension could come to you today, ANGELA. Something that has been restricting you and limiting your growth is going to disappear, and you’ll want to run through the streets shouting “Thank the Lord!” From here on out, my friend, certain desires that have been eluding you could very well start actually manifesting in your life. One of them could be a new romance. What else need we say?

I was getting ready to sign off and go to bed (yep I was headed to bed this early) and I decided to read my horoscope that is emailed to me daily. Once I read it, and the impact it had on me, I decided to share it in this blog. I just read the horoscopes, I don’t live by them, take ‘em and leave ‘em. So for it to mean something to me, I had to stop and ponder the possibilities. Oh you all may think me foolish, but I have to cling to those little moments of inspiration and optimism that present themselves to me, no matter where they come from. And since I had all but given up on love, given my current cancer situation ~ I think I just might take that chance if a romance presents the possibility of love.

On the sleep subject. I am actually tired. I stayed up all night last night (Wed. night — read previous blog), then tried my darnedest to stay awake all day. Trying to get to the point of total exhaustion, so I would be sleepy by Thursday evening. I did however take a 1 & half hour nap in early afternoon. Then again in early evening. So I have slept about 4 hours since Wed. Jeez this is getting confusing because, I am still in the mind set that it is still Thursday, yet since it is almost 4:00 AM it is technically Friday. Like I said I was heading to bed, but then this whole thing came into play, and now I have sat on here writing. Got to get my butt in bed, I have to be up in 3 hours to get my little girl off to school. Guess I will do the whole sleep deprivation thing again today, I will surely be incoherent by nightfall, and if I am lucky my “bad” sleep pattern will be broken and will be back to normal. Before sleep falls upon these eyes however I am anticipating a long conversation with God.