February 17, 2006 [First Entry] I have been diagnosed with cancer
In the Face of Cancer
At the mercy of God
Well my life has encountered a new battle. I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer that has already spread to my bones (to include my spine) meaning there is cancer there too. Of all days on Valentines Day. It is all over my body, and I will have a long hard battle. I am handling it pretty well so far. I refuse to accept the fact that it could take my life. As I see it, I only have one choice and that is to fight it with all my ability, stay strong in my Will and Faith, and beat it with a positive attitude. I have found myself consoling my friends and family members over the past few days. Most have taken it pretty hard. See I don’t want people feeling sorry for me, or pitying me. Their love, a positive outlook, and just being there is all I want. I am hitting cancer head on. But at the same time I know everyone has to deal with things like this in their own way.
I am having some additional tests next week and then going to Moffit Cancer Center in Tampa for treatment. Really won’t know the first measure of treatment until my first visit at Moffit. But for now all I know is that I will be having Radiation and Chemotherapy, they try other avenues and experimental drugs and procedures.
It is going to be a site when I lose my hair. Being bald with ears that stick out, I am going to look like a freakin’ monkey. But my ex-mother law wants to buy me a top of the line wig, in my style and color. She said she knew how uncomfortable I will be, with no hair, since I always take pride in my appearance. I know probably sounds stupid to worry about something like that, but those little things will be what helps me not get depressed.
I still have the major back problems that have caused me severe pain over the last three months, but they can no longer do any adjusting of the sorts, because of the cancer, so I will have to live with that, while dealing with the cancer, but once the cancer is killed, I can then continue the work on my back.
Well I just wanted to let every one know, because I may not be on line for long periods at a time and for those guys that want to meet me, well that is out of the question for a while. I am hoping to get a lap top, so I can at least get on line (to keep me company) and post blogs of my experiences. I can’t really afford a new one, since all my money will be going toward medical bills, but I at least hope to find a good used one. If not then it will be long periods between my postings.
So may God bless you all and keep you safe and healthy!
Peace and all Good things.
Angela
ANGELA ANDREWS PIFER
