February 20, 2006 [Monday] Dealing with it

  First step getting adjusted to cancer

Well I had my hair cut off on Saturday. Not literally, but a lot. Had something like 6 to 7 inches cut off. Shame it was not long enough to send to LOCKS OF LOVE. Last time my hair was really long and I got it cut off was able to send 13 inches. I have been pondering on getting my hair cut in this style for sometime now, But LaTrisha kept trying to convince me to let it grow long the way I used to have it.   I now won’t have the luxury of time to let it grow, so figured I might as well do it now. One thing is it will be healthier, much easier for me to style, and less hair to lose.  It is already thinning and that is from the extreme pain I have been dealing with for some time now.  Health in general is poor so the hair has been breaking and falling out.  The shocker was my ex mother in law made arrangements with the hair dresser, with out me knowing to pick a wig to my liking. That was a little hard to take, was not ready for that just yet. After all who really wants to wear a wig at all. lol. So me sitting there trying on wigs knowing the reason, like I said was hard. But I did find one that is similar to my new hair cut, not decided just yet, the hair dresser gave it to me to try out a few times till Tuesday. However I still want to look elsewhere. After all I am not going to lose my hair til the chemo starts.

Anyway will get a pic up soon of my new doo. It may be the last pic for a while before I start looking like shit.