June 21, 2006 – Treatment from Hell on Wednesday!

I am so not looking forward to tomorrow (technically it is already today). Having my second Zometa Therapy dose. If you read the “Catching up” blog it explains the hell of that in there. So I will most likely be down for a few days. However I have been feeding myself drugs all day (under Docs orders), to prepare for the pain. She hopes this might reduce some of the overwhelming pain by getting these inflammatory drugs, as well as my Oxy well into my system, before the Zometa. So we will see come tomorrow night, but mainly the day after when it should be at it’s worst. But today was def different, Just plain loopy all day from the meds. And well, all of it did help with the daily pain I usually just live with. Did not feel much of anything. Like right now I can walk across the room like all normal and stuff. No limp, because no pain in my hip. But yea, could not function on a daily basis being all doped up, so back to limping after I make it through the next few days. Funny, I wonder if I am writing as slow as I am thinking. Shit none of this makes sense. When you read this does it sound slow to you? lol

Anyway, I don’t know if it is in poor taste to ask for prayers, but I am going to all the same. If it’s improper, blame it on the meds. If you all would not mind just taking a minute after you read this and say a little prayer that I make it through the Zometa, better then last time. Just less pain if you don’t mind. I can handle the throwing up, nose bleeds and even the high fevers, but the pain is just too much. Thats all I ask, and thanks in advance if you do it. My treatment starts at 1:30 and the IV is done within 45 minutes. Prayers during that time would be even better. I feel so blessed to have you all as a part of my life, and to share this experience with. I pray God blesses each of you with special gifts. May his love embrace you and your loved ones and keep you safe as his light shines upon your path. May he always lead you to safe harbor. May you live healthy ever after.

Now I best get my loopy booty in bed before I slide off this chair and pass out on the floor. It’s uncomfortable down there…. small space under my desk and wood floors and all. I keep using the wall to hold me up, but the wheels on my chair won’t let me stay stationary so as I move in the opposite direction I have to push off the book shelf to get back to the wall. Just too much work, so bed sounds really good about now. Hopefully it won’t move. I getting soooooo sleeeeeepy.

If I can, depending on how I feel early on I might be online tomorrow afternoon, if not then I’ll be down a few days. Will let you know how it goes. soooooooooo drowsy. Seepy little bunny…..