June 27, 2006 – A New Scare in our Lives

3:12 AM -

Well, I have been sitting on this for a while. I wanted to wait to see if my daughter revealed it first. In which she now has in a heart breaking blog of her own. She is 20 years old and she found a lump in her breast. The eerie thing is it is in the exact same breast and exact same location as mine. She waited a while to see if it might just go away, but it did not. I felt it and it is very much there and the size of a marble. She has seen a doctor and is scheduled for a mammogram on Wednesday. This has been a very stressful worry for the entire family. But I know just how scared she really is, simply because I have breast cancer already. I feel as though I am wearing out my prayer requests, but I have to beg of you all to send up some prayers for my daughter LaTrisha. She is scared. As all women know how scary getting a mammogram is, think how she must feel at the age of 20 and knowing the odds are already stacked against her given my circumstances. So she needs prayers for God’s strength to get her through this, but let us all pray this lump will be nothing more then a benign cyst. So she can go on living her life and smiling that beautiful smile of hers.

I also shared the news before about my dog being diagnosed with a bone tumor. That’s something else we have been dealing with as well. The cancer is taking her quickly. She is not eating well, very weak and can barely walk now. I was going to have her put to sleep this past Saturday, but the vets messed up on her appt. I am so glad for that now. Nakoma was more alert and mobile over the weekend. It has given me a little more time with her. She still wags her tail every time I walk into the room. As hard as it is for her to walk, she will try her damndest to get up to be near me. She’s an amazing dog and my best friend. But I don’t want her to suffer. So her time with us will be winding down rather soon. We just need to get through this scare of LaTrisha’s this week, and then face the unfortunate event of saying good bye to Nakoma who has been in our family for 11 years.

So as a family things have been a little more stressful and worrisome as of late. I have to believe there is a reason for all this, in God’s plan, But that does not make it any easier to bare. We are holding on to each other just a little more tightly, so no one falls.